Just starting to write...missed my goals for today. Yesterday's flat turned to a car at the shop for a day waiting for new sensors...Just threw me off. Need to remember not to let external forces influence forces on goals. Plus we pivoted on an NSF grant which kept me wandering. At same time starting new chapter. Not formulated at all. Not sure I could do this kind of writing in a disciplined way. Need to embrace the pain of living; allow thoughts to wander as I travel trails with dogs. Feed from a trough of small moments.